I felt God with me watching the sea, listening to the waves, thinking, praying, walking, and in liturgy: especially certain readings/ prayers/ songs. Special words sometimes pierced my heart like a healing arrow. A new understanding? It is okay and actually very normal and healthy for to experience a new transition at this time in my life. And it is a blessing that I can have the time and be open to try some new things. It is good to explore. As I consider possibilities I will open up more again to new hope.
God is letting me heal and enjoy more than ever before female spirituality. I especially am grateful for examples of women who express their spirituality with strength and gentleness, with clarity but also room for open-ness, with graciousness.
Re myself? I can hope again. I can dream again. My life is not over or all dried up. It’s okay for me to go slowly. It’s good and fully right that I hear and honor my inner sense that this is really the time for me to explore. God blesses my rhythms. Letting go need not bring me or mean shame. Things passing is not failure. Some of my sorrow comes from attachment, some is because of love. It’s all okay. I am resilient. Main revelation: Life is still Good. Contributing my little part where/ how-ever is worthwhile. There are others doing so also. Life on earth is not hopeless! The most significant grace for me right now is the capacity to feel a sense of contentment. “My grace is sufficient for thee.”
I am very very grateful for women who can and do the gracious ministry of quiet hospitality. I am grateful for womanly wisdom and fertile spaces. I am grateful for a renewed tangible sense of Life, Here and Now, that just Is. It’s not dependent upon a program or an accomplishment or results of any kind. I am grateful to have reclaimed some of my inner child’s wonder and direct in-touch-ness with a Life-is-Good view.
Notes from Cohasset, on retreat in September 2016